Soul Survivor

It wasn’t that long ago when I would wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and think it couldn’t have happened.  Mason couldn’t have died, it’s not possible, it’s all been a terrible mistake.  Please, tell me it’s not real.  But it was real and it did happen. It took time before his death was truly known to me in the way that all truths are known, without doubt, without question.  I knew the sun would come up in the morning, I knew the sun would go down in the evening, and I knew Mason had died.  More time had to pass before I began to understand that even so, all was not lost. Mason’s life had ended, but his soul, that unseen, at times undervalued, yet ultimately defining element in each of us, survives what our bodies and minds cannot.  It’s where our wisdom, our wealth and our true beauty reside.

Fear knocked at the door, Faith answered and lo, no one was there.

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  1. Heather bateman's avatar Heather bateman says:

    I was thinking about Mason and your family last night. I asked Joe how he thought you all might be doing with “The” date approaching us. We miss Mason daily. Political season, fantasy football and ACL do not seem right without him in our world…none of this reality seems right.
    You and your family are in our thoughts often. I’ve been enjoying Crystal’s blog and it’s great having contact with her. I admire you and how wonderful of a job you dId raising your family. Thank you for your postings.
    Heather

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